The end or something new?

It was a difficult time for me, everything was falling apart, my marriage seemed over, the one person I loved was gone, life was a struggle again. I wanted my wife back, not because she was at home and I had to make an effort, but because I really wanted her back....she wasnt convinced. I vut off my other friend, she was a major reason for tension between me and my wife, I was fine this time round with not being friends with her, but my wife wasnt convinced, she wasnt ready to work on things with 'us', she was happy to be free and not think about things, do her own stuff, and find out what life had to offer, I knew that in her mind, she was over me, and wanted to find love again...that crushed me. I didnt blame her anymore, I knew what I had done, it was my fault for pushing her away, I felt like life had ended, even with my kids...it didnt seem enough. About a month after she moved out I found myself driving around one late night, I had gone to the border of our state and the next one, to a place called point danger, a cliffside. I had no intention of going there, it was just random, I hadnt eaten for 3 days, and hadnt slept for 4 days, my mind wasnt in the best of spots. I tempted myself, I hate heights and water, I was standing on the cliffside around midnight, I looked over the edge, I loved my kids but was it enough to keep me happy? I hated the missing part, my wife, my soulmate. It was a selfish thing to consider jumping, to leave my friends, family and my kids behind...but I felt lost, totally. I made it through the night though, I drove home early that morning, but made a stop to the wifes house, we talked, thats when I broke down, I dont remember the last time I cried or felt sad, this was it for me, I couldnt hold it in any longer, emotion was overwhelming me, I told her how I felt, she understood but didnt want to take me back out of pity, I had no idea what I had to do, I just wanted her back. I knew deep down that she would find someone else, without much effort, she's a beautiful person inside and out, so someone would see that without much problem, I was on borrowed time. I tried everything, the promise of change, begging etc, but it was useless, I had to have something else to offer, I didnt know what, but then it happened, my Psychic returned, to set me back on track.