I should be sleeping

Well its not that late, 11.40pm on a Wednesday, day off tomorrow, but really I should be in bed....but, I don't feel tired tonight. I'm not really sure why, I've done lots of hours at work the last couple of weeks, I'm normally awake by 5am most mornings, sleeping in is 6am! Maybe its just having too many thoughts running through my head tonight, nothing bad, just thinking about work, the last few months has been abit shitty, lots of changes, some good, some bad. It seems the clash of personalities is really making things difficult, for me? No not really, I'm pretty much removed from that, I'm not really taking sides, just seeing things from some peoples side of things. The ethics of the place are my main problem, Nic, our 'new' boss, in my opinion, doesn't deserve the position she's in, I haven't seen her work any harder than anyone else there, I don't see her making things better for the animals, if anything now that she is in control of things, she can pretty much pick and choose what animals go out for sale and which ones visit the 'green' room.. Its disappointing, I've worked in many places where the staff are treated like second class people, I wouldn't have expected this at a rescue centre. Its all about money isn't it? Every business needs to make money to stay afloat, I get that, but the rescue centre feels like a pet shop, sales meetings and training nights, listening to figures like, '200 people came through the doors on the weekend, but only 40 animals were adopted', to me figures like that are important in a retail store, we're a 'NO PROFIT RESCUE CENTRE FOR ANIMALS!!!', anyone can work in a pet store and sell a cat or a dog to anyone, I choose to work in a rescue centre because I don't agree with what pet shops do, selling animals to just anyone, they're the reason alot of rescue centres exist, people go into pet stores and see a cute husky puppy, the salesperson does the hard sell 'Ohh the puppies soooo cute, ohh look how its kissing you, it wants to go home with you', then a couple of months later the new dog owners realise how much work the dog is, how much exercise it needs, attention, food, vet bills...then we get the call 'The dogs just not suited to our lifestyle', another homeless dog...pet shops... I don't need sales figures, I'm not in a pet shop, I don't just sell dogs to anyone, I find the right people for dogs, I find forever homes for these animals, saying we're not selling enough is offensive, being called 'sales consultants' is offensive, I'm a rehoming team member, not a salesman. To start to force sales and animals on people...that reduces the rescue centre to a pet shop, in my opinion. I'm disappointed with my workplace. They say the place isn't making enough money, we cant afford to work extra and get paid for it, and yet a new position of a 'purchase officer' has just popped up, to help us reduce our product costs, and yet the centre has never-in its 50years- had a purchase officer, ohh wait its the bosses brother, a very strong conflict of interest I think. I have a job offer, working with a mate, on cars again, good money, do I want to take it? Not really. Will I? Maybe not. Maybe I need to move forward with where I want my future to be, working with animals, making a difference, I don't think I want to take a backwards step in my career, being paid to work on someone else's car's is a backwards step, time to move forward. Tomorrow-well now today-I have a plan, resume and emails.